Ok, the baby is a...

SPOILER ALERT, If you don't want to know the sex of the baby, don't read anymore.

Of course, we would like to as well. The kiddo was a little shy and crossed his/her legs for most of the ultrasound. The sonographer had difficulty trying to see anything. We have to go back in 2 weeks to get a good view of his/her feet and hopefully a much better view of the goods. The sonographer was leaning toward a girl, but wasn't totally convinced. Hell, I am not convinced. I really want a boy. I figured if we found out the sex now, then if it is a girl then I can get over my disappointment now. I know, I know, the only thing that matters is that it is healthy. But, I really want a boy. I have a great fear of raising a girl. I was not an easy kid to raise, still aren't, and I don't think I could take a mini me. There. I said it. Let the bad mom lashing begin.

On another note, I can add to my stress (like I need more) as my new landlord dropped the bomb yesterday that he is selling the house. Umm, we just signed a 2 year lease. And we aren't even all the way moved in yet. Hello? Us? Over here? Don't want to move again. This should be an interesting week.

So, to lighten up the atmosphere around here, E. has been practicing so hard for her first musical. She has 3 parts in Annie; Ms. Ward, Usherette, and FDR. She has lines and even gets to sing a few lines of Tomorrow solo! She practices her dances every day and her singing has improved exponentially. I think for her birthday, we are going to take her to see Wicked. She will have her name in lights. I can't wait.

Happy Monday

We survived the weekend. Both my mom and mother-in-law and my godmother came up to help us get the house together this weekend. It is going to be an expensive Mother's Day this year. They did so much. From contact papering the kitchen cabinets and loading in 75% of the food to getting everything in drawers, 7 loads of laundry (I am still convinced the washing machine doesn't work properly), and the father-in-law helped honey put together the entertainment unit. That took 3 hours. The best was everyone giving their opinion on where things should go all the while cursing us for having so much stuff. I don't think I want to have them over together again until the baby's christening. I was emotionally drained. I had to escape for 30 minutes to pick up dry cleaning and I wanted to find some other errands to do! All kidding aside, they did help us a lot, from putting together furniture and getting stuff into their new homes. Thank you all. We love you lots.

Now we have a crazy week ahead. I am traveling to Orlando, honey's birthday is Friday and he wants to have people over for a BBQ. How will we get the house ready!

Also, E. had such a good report card, we went shopping for a new bike yesterday. Check out the new one! She got the cool step-through frame that looks like this. Now she and honey can go riding on the bike path across the street from our house or on the aqueduct anytime.

Today I am 19w4d and we have the gross anatomy ultrasound. We ARE going to find out the sex of the baby. My FASTER results came back with a negative screen, we passed with flying colors, no amnio needed. <1 in 10,000 chance for abnormalities. Doc said he would take those odds to Vegas. Today we will know for sure that everything is healthy (at least as much as we can until the baby is born).

Honey asked this weekend if its not a boy, can we try again. I told him no, I am done, all this itching, the rash, the indigestion, the inconvienence of everything has been miserable for me. He was so pissed. I told him to ask me again AFTER the baby is born. Right now I am halfway through and I am done. We haven't even reached the high point of the hot summer and inadequate air conditioning and I am done. Ask me again in October. At least the house is halfway finished. Soon we can start getting stuff together for the baby.

Moved in

Well, we did it. We are now officially living out of boxes. We packed and moved most our things last weekend, we hired movers but we both wound up lifting and moving things (I carried light stuff, don't worry). As of yesterday, we are officially out of our old apartment with the Hudson River View and we now have a Saw Mill River view. I think I want the Hudson River back. But this is a house. With hardwood floors. A finished basement. Washer and dryer. Deck and backyard. Have I mentioned that there aren't any hills? It cuts 15 minutes from honey's commute and he hasn't been late all week. I have been in at 8:30am all week. This is a good thing.

Both mother and mother-in-law have come to help get stuff out of boxes. Now they both want to come up on Saturday. I don't think I can handle that. My mom, very particular about linens, china, and matching silverware, and placement of things in the linen closet vs. his mom, who just wants things clean, no matter what they are. I know they both have the best of intentions, but I don't think I can handle it. I just want to sleep. I am exhausted. I think I have to cave and get that body pillow.

Bipolar Girl

Yep, that's me.

One minute I am great, the next, a horrible mess. One minute I am screaming during the Duran Duran concert at John Taylor, boppin around to all my old favorite tunes (The Chauffeur, Save a Prayer, and Hungry Like the Wolf) with my honey smiling at me because he has never seen me be a silly teenager. The next, I am a stress-out, confrontational mess with messy hair and no make-up over moving, feeling uncomfortable all-over and all the hassles going on over one of my accounts at work.

If I take it easy, can I not feel guilty about not working so hard? My body knows to slow down, I don't know if my mind can.

Mom, let me out!

We felt the baby kick this weekend. It was the weirdest feeling I have ever experienced. It was quick poundings that felt like someone banging on the bathroom door because they had to pee so bad and someone was already in there. The funny thing is, immediately after it happened, I had to run into the bathroom. Then s/he did it again so Daddy could feel it. Big sis didn't get to feel it this time, but I am sure we'll have plenty of opportunities later.

I was shocked and happy, crying tears as I do, and of course, honey had his digital camera. So far, that was it, no other kicks or pounds. I will keep you posted!

TGIF

I can't believe I worked until 11pm last night. Ugh.

Here's the the weekend.

How cool

They are filming a movie outside my office called "The Commuters". Apparently the story follows 3 couples as they commute from suburbia to NYC. How cool would it be to be caught in the background in a small cameo walking all preggers with building badge around my neck, Coach bag on my arm, living the REAL commuting life?

Ah, a beautiful day. Off to Bryant Park for lunch. Ciao!

Beautiful day...

...horrible feeling me.

I HATE being sick. I avoid it like the plague, but it always finds me. So on top of being 16 weeks pregnant, I am sick, taking Zithromax, Sudafed, Claritin, and Tylenol on top of my multi-vitamin. So what does that cocktail do? Make me puke my guts up of course. I can't take it! I thought I was done with puking! So now, I am sipping water, working from home panicking about how the heck we are going to move in 1.5 weeks.

Oh, yeah. Forgot to mention. We are moving. Another rental, but its a 3 bedroom house. With a yard. No hills or stairs. Yeah! We have to be out of here by April 15.

And, we told E. She was excited. She also said, "what about Disney World?" What, like we go there annually? Last year was my first time back since 1980. Then she asked, "how does he breathe?" Good question young padua.

Now, off to pack and try to feel better. Hope everyone is seeing spring today!

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